In the Garden of Eden there was no doubt.
Someone said that fear is actually faith in evil. So doubt must be confidence in an alternative.
Adam and Eve had two choices and allowed themselves to be convinced to have confidence in themselves rather than God. That sort of decision is what we now call on Facebook and internet chat boards an “Epic Fail.”
Of course, that doesn’t stop us from still doing it. A lot. Every day. Probably every minute.
And we have lots of doubts…
Living in this world is hard. It’s broken, and so are we.
Someone once told me that it is easy to understand and believe in Jesus’ miracles if you stop seeing the world as normal and the miracles as an suspension of natural reality and starting seeing the world as fundamentally broken and the miracles as no more than a return to normalcy. That’s Jesus’ job. His whole assignment is to heal all of created reality.
We weren’t supposed to have illness and death and strife and hardship and conflict and separation and broken relationships and addiction and a thousand other destructive things. We weren’t supposed to wander around this life mostly protecting and nursing our past wounds by any means necessary, fair or foul, perpetuating the cycle of hurt for future generations to enjoy.
But we have those things, and we do those things.
And we doubt. All of us. Frequently.
Christian Culture tells people in no uncertain terms that they shouldn’t doubt. Shouldn’t doubt what they’ve been taught about God, shouldn’t doubt what they’ve been taught about theology, shouldn’t doubt their eternal fate, shouldn’t doubt whether God really loves them and will work things out for their benefit, shouldn’t doubt whether goodness and mercy shall follow them all the days of their lives.
But when I read the Bible, all I see are people doubting those things. Are we to be more certain than people who had front row seats for miracles and talked to burning bushes, walked through the middle of parted seas, saw people healed and raised from the dead? Are we better than the people in the Bible?
God’s chosen people throughout the Old Testament were the Israelites.
The word Israel means, “He who struggles with God.”
Because of the world we live in, struggling with God is about the best we can do. It’s not what was originally intended—I’ll give Christian Culture that much—but it’s what we’ve got.
If you’re struggling with God, you’re engaging Him. You could be ignoring Him, stonewalling Him, avoiding Him, hiding from Him. Whether you realize it or not, what you’re doing by struggling with Him is fighting for a better relationship with Him.
If you struggle with God, you are one of His chosen people.
If you’re doubting, it’s because you want to know the Truth.
Whatever we avoid dealing with controls us. Don’t allow doubt to control you. Admit doubt. Work through doubt, constructively. Doubt your doubts, since you like to doubt so much.
But know that every single person who seriously engages God has the same kind of doubts you do. They’ve been taught to not admit it, so everyone thinks that everyone else has it together and they’re the only ones who struggle.
But we all struggle.
If we’re chosen of God, that is.