If Not For You

Our worship team introduced a new song in church several months ago called Remembrance by Hillsong Worship. Some of the lyrics are:

You've been so, so good to me
Oh to think where I would be
If not for You

I am constantly in awe of just how good our Jesus is to us. The list of His attributes is lengthy, but to name just a few, He is our healer, provider, redeemer, savior and sanctifier. And, He loves us WAY more than anyone else ever will. The LORD will never fail us or disappoint us. He’s always there and He always will be to carry us through every trial.

The phrase that really touched my heart, though, was the one about thinking about where I would be if not for Him.  Most of my years were spent not knowing Him. Now that I do, there are no words for the gratitude I have for all that the LORD has done for me. If not for Him, I would not be whole, healed and peering excitedly into the future.

Last year, I experienced three job losses. The first one was from a job I had worked at since college and had sadly seen a steady decline in work happen over the past few years. Seeing the company dissolve and my job right along with it was expected, the others were not. After the second job was abruptly over and grieving yet another ending, I holed up alone that first evening. As the night wore on, I got down on the floor, in front of my open window, crying out to the LORD. He met me there like He always does. Sleep and peace finally came after spending time with Him.

The Message Version of Romans 8:15 is a favorite of mine:

This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?”

This scripture brought great comfort and encouragement as I walked through these employment challenges.  Knowing I had a choice in how I viewed this time of uncertainty, I chose to cling to this verse.

Truly, our walk with the LORD is a daily adventure. We never know when we wake up in the morning what He may have for us that day. By being open to letting Him lead us minute by minute, we’re bound to experience peace, strength and wonder. His ways are better, His thoughts are higher. He is able to orchestrate events that have Kingdom impact and He invites us to tag along. And, how AMAZING is that?!!

ALL that we have is because of the LORD. When we surrender EVERYTHING to Him, this is when He shows up BIG. Our lives yielded to His chisel will be sculpted into works of art. He brings beauty from ashes. It’s who He is and what He does.

Days after the third job ended, I remember thinking about the second job loss and I felt the LORD whisper “We’ve been through deeper waters.” And, indeed, we have. The LORD carried me through those other trials, and I knew with all my heart, I’d see Him do it again.

I’m thrilled to wrap this post up by saying I’m a week into a new job - one that the LORD so beautifully orchestrated for me! I love the people I work with and the work I am doing. Sitting in a mountain chapel on Thanksgiving weekend, pouring out my heart to the LORD, I heard Him say “something good is coming.” My heart is brimming over with gratitude, because I believe that that “good” is this job!