A river is the common metaphor for time. Time only flows forward, never backwards. Time moves constantly and takes anything along for the ride. The question then is are we moving through time or are we the agents of movement? Do we move time forward by our decisions or is time just rapidly moving ever forward, sweeping us in it?
Last year, I experienced three job losses. The first one was from a job I had worked at since college and had sadly seen a steady decline in work happen over the past few years. Seeing the company dissolve and my job right along with it was expected, the others were not. After the second job was abruptly over and grieving yet another ending, I holed up alone that first evening. As the night wore on, I got down on the floor, in front of my open window, crying out to the LORD.
I consider myself to be a highly logical person so, when I signed up to take Introduction to Logic in college, I thought it would be fun and easy. It was neither. Instead, I found logic to be much more "mathy" than anticipated; and the other people in my class talked too much. Even though I struggled to get through the class, I actually come back to some of the concepts we covered fairly often.
Parker Palmer, in his book Hidden Wholeness, says that part of being with someone who is dying is to sit quietly with their soul. Sitting quietly maintains respect for the person as God’s creation and child. Forcing an agenda, one’s own inquisitiveness, or desire for amends is to violate the sacredness of the person in their most sacred time.
I can’t recall ever decidedly making any specific New Year’s Resolutions in the past. I can recognize, however, that the there is something about the beginning of another calendar year which elicits a need to reflect on the events of the passing year and their effects. And by the same token, this annual occurrence also seems to stir up a need for deep consideration about how we would like the coming year to unfold, and then to resolutely decide the steps necessary to bring those desires to fruition.